Well, after having such a difficult few weeks, I got on my knees yesterday and had a screaming conversation (through prayer), with Heavenly Father. I've been angry, frustrated, confused, and I needed to find peace with having to move back into an apartment, peace with my job situation, peace with many, many things.
I went over to the townhouse complex, and toured the model home. We had lived in the "sister" complex to this place back when we lived in Draper, so I was really excited. It was really nice. I happened to ask about the washer and dryer; whether we could hook up our own. Nope. Yikes, that became a huge strike against them. We love our washer/dryer, and we want to USE them, not put them in my sister's garage! I continued the tour and noticed there was no linen closet for towels and bed sheets, no way to put a shelf above the washer and dryer for our detergent to sit, and the parking was VERY far from the house. I still left a holding deposit, but I knew that Nick wasn't going to be happy about the washer/dryer situation.
Once home, I began writing a pro/con list. This place is smoke and pet free: BIG pro. That was about the only pro I could come up with. The townhouse was in a location that provides no privacy, and like I mentioned earlier, we wouldn't be able to use our beloved washer and dryer or have the other few amenities that we would like: especially for the price they wanted. Needless to say, I was bummed and wondering what we were going to do.
As I continued to talk with the nice lady in the office, everything came together. We'll be able to start moving into the new place throughout the month of August since we'll have to pay rent for the place we're in now because the lease won't be up yet. We can live in the new place, get it completely set up BEFORE school starts, and spend more time cleaning this house so that we can get as much of the deposit back as possible. We won't have to RUSH to move this time, like we've had to do the past 3 times.
As I mentioned in my last post, this has been a very difficult year. I have finally found the answers I've been looking for. I am at peace with why I am at my current job, that it's where I should be right now. I am at peace regarding where we will be living in August. The answers didn't come when I wanted them, they came when they were supposed to.
Life is full of trials. How we handle them is what is important. Next time we find ourselves angry, frustrated, and confused, we need to remember this: