Wednesday, August 6, 2014

When God Closes A Door...

somewhere he opens a window...or two, or three, or four!

The past 5 days have been the most incredible of my life.  I have found myself feeling the deepest sorrow, and the greatest joy.  Friends I was aware of, and friends that have always been there, just in the background, have rallied around me to show their love and support in ways that I never thought possible.

Last Friday I found myself in a situation no one ever wants to be in:  needing new employment.  After spending a few hours crying, I gathered myself together and got to work.  I would much rather have curled up into the fetal position, crawled into bed, and eaten chocolate while watching Burn Notice, (especially since my marathon has yet to be completed!) but I needed a job, and quickly.

By Sunday evening I had applied for over 35 jobs in 4 different school districts.  As of yesterday morning (Tuesday), I had 3 interviews set up just for that day, which was amazing.  That was a first for me.  I was hopeful that one of these positions would pan out.

My confidence had been shaken to its core.  I was doubting my abilities, I was scared, and didn't know what I was going to do.  That's when the cavalry arrived.  Actually, that's when the entire ARMY arrived!  As word began to spread Friday about what happened, my phone started ringing, text messages started flowing in, and they didn't stop until Sunday night!  Friends and family wanted to know how I was doing, if there was anything they could do for me, and encouraged me not to give up.  I was blown away by just how many people took time out of their day to contact me.  One friend called me four times throughout the day on Friday, because she wanted to check up on me!

Friday afternoon as I began updating my resume and applying for jobs, I asked former coworkers for letters of recommendation.  Not only were they incredible about getting them to me quickly, but they were the most AMAZING letters I've ever received!  Tears flowed as I read what was written about me and what I have to offer as a teacher.  These letters lifted me up when I needed it the most.  To those of you who wrote them:  thank you will NEVER be enough.  I went from feeling like garbage, to knowing that I have value.

I had been going non-stop since Friday.  To add to the stress of everything in life, my car decided that NOW was the time to stop working.  We had taken it to be diagnosed on Saturday.  Some issues were found, and then Saturday afternoon, once we were home, my transmission began showing signs that it was dying.  When being put into reverse, and every time it would switch gears, it would buck.  Not just a small buck, I mean a HUGE, freak-you-out, jolt you forward buck.  Great, just great.  It's the scariest when it goes from 1st to 2nd, but it's enough to worry the average person.  I am scared to death of car trouble, so this hasn't helped at all.  This is the 2nd transmission my car has had, so to say I'm unhappy would be a huge understatement!

Tuesday (yesterday) came and it was time to interview.  I got into my car and took Brandon around the block to a friend from church who was going to watch him.  Going around the block in my car was enough to make me nervous.  We were engaged in small talk, when my car trouble came up.  My friend offered to loan me her car for the day, which I couldn't believe.  I kindly said thanks, but no, and left.  I was 3 blocks away when my phone rang.  It was my friend.  She had been talking to her husband, and they insisted that I come back and use their car since I would be going to quite a few places that day and they wanted me to be able to focus on my interviews without the stress of whether my car was going to work.  So off I went in what I consider a luxury car, compared to mine; another unexpected and welcomed blessing.

My interviews went really well.  After the first one, at a public school in Salt Lake City for 5th grade,  I had an email on my phone asking if I could interview at another school that day.  So I ended up with a FOURTH interview! Wow.  My second interview was at a charter school in West Jordan for 3rd grade.  When I left that interview, I had been all but offered the position.  The 3rd interview was also at a charter school in West Jordan for 5th grade.  I had only been out of the 3rd interview for about 5 minutes when I received a phone call from the director offering me the position! I have never heard back from a potential employer THAT quickly!  The 4th interview, at a public school here in Tooele for 6th grade, went well, and I was home by about 4pm.

And then something monumental happened for me.  I've never had the opportunity to be able to think about the pros and cons of potential jobs.  I've only been offered one at a time in the past.  By 5pm, I had 3 of the 4 schools offering me the position that I had interviewed for!  I was STUNNED. I even had my phone ring 2 more times that night with principals asking for an interview, which I declined because I already had 3 great offers and A LOT to think about!  The people I interviewed with were very impressed with my letters of recommendation; so again, thank you ladies for helping me land three offers!

That night friends were all excited and curious about what had happened, and which school I was going to choose.  Instead of having a TON of  individual conversations about it, I figured I'd write a blog post so all my fabulous friends could satisfy their curiosity!  So, where will I be teaching?  In the end it wasn't that tough a decision to make.  I am a charter school teacher, and I LOVE to teach using Direct Instruction.  I will be teaching 3rd grade at.....




This school in is West Jordan, Utah, and they use Direct Instruction teaching methods, and teach the same spelling, reading and math programs that I've been teaching the past 3 years.  I am so excited to meet new teachers and students.  This will be a wonderful place to work.  Brandon is also very excited to meet new teachers and students.  He's even more excited that I'll be teaching 3rd grade.  He's in 2nd this year, so he knows that means I'll be nearby.


I want to take a moment to thank EVERYONE who has helped me the past 6 days.  Your support, no matter how you gave it to me, is recognized and appreciated.  Pep talks, sweet, uplifting comments, a listening ear, watching Brandon, letting me borrow your car, copying resume information for me since my printer doesn't work; HOWEVER you helped me, it won't be forgotten.  This journey has shown me just how blessed I am, and I love you all very much.  My heart is full, and I see the many ways my family has been blessed.  In the past, I've gone days, weeks, even months before landing a teaching job.  This all started last Thursday, and was over 5 days later.  

IN.CRE.DI.BLE




We don't know if we'll be moving to West Jordan or not.  From Tooele, it's a 45 minute drive both ways.  I hate commuting, so we will see what happens with that.  For now, I'm just so grateful for all the wonderful people I have in my life, and the blessings that have been given to us.

Training doesn't start for me until the 18th of August, so it looks like I'll be able to finish my Burn Notice marathon after all!!




Wednesday, July 30, 2014

Teacher Humor

This is the last week of summer vacation.  I can't believe it's already come, but it has.  As I prepare to go back into "teacher mode" next week, here are some funny quotes I found on pinterest about teachers.


This is exactly how I feel right now!









I did this just a few weeks ago.  Getting to the stores before everyone else was SO AWESOME!












This is how I feel right now!













#1, 2, 5, 8 are my favorites!




Who are we kidding...I don't hide the candy I eat at all.  I eat it in front of them!!!




Isn't this the truth!





















Saturday, July 19, 2014

30 Days of July, 2014: Day 19





Let's face it; we all have them. Certain things in life that make you want to scream, pull out your hair, or slap the person sitting closest to you! Journey with me today to discover my top 5 pet peeves in life.

#5:  Cleaning the bathroom/No toilet paper


I HATE CLEANING BATHROOMS! I have hated it for as long as I can remember, and will probably hate it until I'm dead. I don't know what it is that makes me despise this chore so very much, especially since a dirty bathroom isn't exactly a pleasant place to be. My skin just crawls at the very thought of it.


While we're talking about bathrooms, how many of you hate this? If you see the roll is empty, or near empty GRAB ANOTHER ROLL FOR THE NEXT PERSON!! There's nothing worse than be caught without this; and it's even worse if you're in a public restroom! I've learned to check for toilet paper before I use the restroom because this bothers me so much!




#4:  "Vaguebooking"


How many of us have either seen, or are culprits of doing this? When vague status updates come up, I ignore them because they drive me crazy! Who wants to scroll through their Facebook feed just to find this stuff? What's even more annoying is when friends give in and ask what the vague post was about, and the person STILL doesn't give any information!




#3: Slow music in church


Okay, let me clarify this. I have major issues with songs that are meant to be played fast, but are ALWAYS played slowly. The songs that drag on for what seems like an ETERNITY, and make you want to poke your eyes out with a fork because you wonder if they are ever going to end! Those of you who go to church know EXACTLY what I'm talking about and are laughing. As a pianist, it's my job to watch the chorister, and to play at the speed they are conducting.

I've heard the phrase "conducting is just waving your arm". I HATE THAT PHRASE, because it isn't true. Conducting music is a talent. Unfortunately, most people don't have time to learn it for church purposes. If I'm playing for a chorister who doesn't really know what they are doing, and are conducting slowly when the song needs to go faster, I will take off and play the song at the speed it should go! It's also annoying when you have a conductor who knows what they are doing and then you have a pianist who doesn't pay attention and plays slow....so frustrating!!

Here's an example of a song that is often played WAY TOO SLOW. In this clip, it is played perfectly.





#2:  People who use horrible grammar

This pet peeve hits home because I'm a teacher. The incorrect use of the English language is something we see more and more. Facebook and text messaging encourage this with their use of acronyms. People have become lazy, and simply don't care anymore. It's very frustrating.

I've always taken pride in my ability to spell and use the language correctly. There are certain words and phrases that I use wrong even today; no one is perfect! But I always try to speak using proper grammar.

Below are a few pictures that simply made me laugh out loud. These are probably the biggest "offenders" of words that are either spelled incorrectly, or actually said wrong.




Just this week, Weird Al released a song title "Word Crimes" that parodies how people use words and phrases wrong. On a side note, I'm so proud of the fact that I have NO IDEA what this song is. I've read articles about how horrible the lyrics are to the original song, and even Nick was stunned that I was listening to it...until he realized it was Weird Al!





#1:  Bad drivers

I don't know of anyone who can say that bad drivers don't make them want to pull out their hair! We battle bad driver's every single day on the road. If you can't follow the rules of the road, don't drive on it.


If the speed limit is 40mph; don't drive 30mph. People who don't drive the speed limit are dangerous, and very frustrating. Either drive, or walk to where you're going if you're going to drive slow enough that I could run beside you and be going faster than you!

Blinkers are our friend, and people should use them more often.

Tailgating is probably the worst thing you can do while driving. It is my biggest driving pet peeve. If I am in the fast lane, and I'm already going 5 miles over the speed limit, and the cars in the next lane are going slower than I am, don't expect me to move over for you! Not only do you put everyone else in harms way, but you look really stupid driving really fast, only to sit at the red light up ahead!


This is EXACTLY what I do if you are tailgating me! Is it any safer than tailgating? No. But I won't let you intimidate me into driving faster because you are a jerk!




So, there are my top 5 pet peeves!


Friday, July 18, 2014

Life With Epilepsy (30 Days of July, 2014: Day 18)


Many of you know that I have a seizure disorder.  For some reason, I rarely call it epilepsy, even though once you've have two seizures that's what the diagnosis is.  I think I shy away from that phrase because it's scary.  I don't think most people really understand what it is, and it makes them uncomfortable.

If you're unfamiliar with my story, read here and here.  My goal today is to shed some light on this condition.






These facts blew me away.  I didn't know that epilepsy was so common before I started writing this post.  What is each day like with epilepsy? Well, keeping reading while I shed some light on what each day is like for me.

I've only had a few Grand Mal seizures...the type where your body shakes and you fall to the floor. Unfortunately, one of them happened while I was student teaching in the 6th grade.  Luckily, the students knew about my disorder, and a few went to find their regular day teacher, who was at the school when it happened.  My most common seizures are Petit Mal.  I could be having a conversation with you and suddenly I just stop doing everything. You might keep on talking to me, but I can no longer talk to you.





When I have a seizure, I have NO IDEA what has happened.  How long have I been "out of it", what did I do while I was having a seizure? It's very frustrating. If it happens while I'm exercising, I'll rewind the DVD to the last thing I remember and then push play until it catches up to the next thing I remember to help me discover how long the seizure was.  If I'm with my family, I'll ask them.





I've already lost my independence once due to epilepsy. I fear that one day I will loose it again. In my 20's I lost my driver's license and had to rely on the good graces of those around me to take me EVERYWHERE I needed to go. I had family and friends keeping their eye on me throughout the day to make sure I made it to where I walking to. At one point I couldn't even work because of this. I've digressed back to a child in many ways, needing my mom to help me more than any adult would like that to happen!



My family has been through a lot when it comes to my seizures. They remember them all, deal with the aftermath, help fill in the blanks of my memory. They worry about me, are afraid that something worse will happen to me...it's exhausting for everyone. I wait for the day when I don't have to hear Brandon ask me if I'm having a seizure because I'm not talking. And I wish that he didn't even have to know that sometimes mommy has seizures. Luckily, he's never seen Grand Mal; I hope that never happens in front of him.



Sometimes I have "auras"; I can sense when a seizure is going to come and can often stop it by using my VNS device. This isn't always the case. Often they hit and I don't know it until I've snapped out of it and am realizing that I've lost time. This is definitely one of the scarier aspects of epilepsy. You never know when it will happen, or where you will be when it does happen. You're like a ticking time bomb. Never knowing when it will happen is another reason why I am such a homebody.



This is how I am feeling as of late. Since my surgery last November, we've been working on getting my seizures back under control. I want nothing more than to have another 6 years seizure free! Unfortunately that hasn't happened yet. I am lucky, because I can usually go about a week or two between seizures. But there are times where I will have one each day. Medication changes happen often, as you will often "fail" one, which means it doesn't work for you no matter what the dose is. Right now I'm in the process of changing the dose of one of my medications because I keep having breakthrough seizures.



This is one part of epilepsy that I deal with on almost a daily basis. Headaches come often, lead to migraines, and don't go away with either special headache medication or REALLY strong over-the-counter medication. I've managed to finally find an OTC drug that works: Excedrin Migraine. Surprisingly this medication knocks out almost all of my migraines.



Like I've mentioned before, epilepsy has taken away a lot of my memories. This is both a blessing and a curse. It's very frustrating to not be able to remember events from your own life; important events, like your first marriage, the people you've dated, my pregnancy with Brandon, and most of college. I try, but there is nothing there. The blessings of memory loss are when you don't WANT to remember things; like my first marriage! I've also had many tests done over the years that I'm grateful not to remember.



November is epilepsy awareness month. If I were ever going to get a tattoo, this is what it would be. This is a beautiful logo, and if you see it, know that it represents epilepsy awareness.



My neurologist always tells me that SEIZURES DON'T PLAY FAIR. I've never heard more true advice regarding epilepsy. Overall, I know that my life is blessed. There are people with epilepsy who have a much harder life than I do. I know what causes my seizures. Other people don't. I am able to keep a job, and take care of my family, others can't. I still have the ability to drive, even though I do it A LOT less than before. I function pretty much like a "normal" person. I am very grateful for all that I have, and hope that one day soon I won't have to worry about seizures anymore.



This is me each day I don't have a seizure!




Each day you have to get out of bed, try not to stress about what may or may not happen, and remember this quote!! And overall, you have to do all you can not to stress out about what does happen, because stress causes seizures!